The individuals doing this to me definitely want to have their cake and eat it to. They spent what seems like years, bragging to me about how badly they had messed me up. It was so important to them for so long, that I know how badly they treated and abused me. I really do believe they shattered several civil and human rights in doing this to me. Then I started calling them on their bad behavior and they started dissembling right away.
“Oh we just made a little fun of you. Your being such a cry baby. This wasn’t that bad an experience.”
At least I own what I do wrong. I think it is funny when they lose all consistency in their reporting of their actions. I can’t help it. How can you take an abusive collective of people and treat them seriously when they themselves can’t decide if they wronged you or not.
As for me, I definitely lost respect for everyone after I woke up in the hospital. I had to accept that this is who most people are. They have this nice and friendly shell but when you look past the shell, its mostly a bunch of people dying from a desire to punish others. I guess I have known that part for a good twenty years. The real thing I can’t figure out is which is worse:
a. If you were abusing me when you thought I was too stupid to understand
b. You thought treating someone like that is an acceptable way to treat anyone. Regardless of who they are.
Either way its a scumbag way to roll.
I think it is weird to be the great evil and stupid guy and yet I would have stood up immediately even if I hated the guy and said, “What the heck is wrong with you people?” Eleanor Roosevelt would have demolished your punk butts.
None of it matters because the one truth above all is that even though I believe to my core that most of you enjoy abusing others and it is a guilty pleasure for you, my assessment of being trapped in a place by you so that you can have the joy of abusing me stands and to me that is real hypocrisy.
There is one known truth over the suspected one that most of you are hiding a deep desire to punish. That truth is, you can’t fight the mob. They will do everything they can to laser focus their hate and once you’re the object of the mob’s hate, their isn’t any way out. So all you people who whisper “Fuck you,” in my ear, and there are many. Carry on.