What it all boils down to

Someone in the traffic decided to hit me with the statement, “I am better then you.”

My honest response to that is that I don’t see it.  I have watched this for some twenty years now.  During this time you have cursed at me, spit on me and threatened me.  I have changed over those years but the traffic has remained stagnate.  With the exception of you being employed and my not being employed, I feel like I am the one who is better.

I don’t make up strange excuses for treating others poorly.  I don’t walk around and abuse people and I don’t feel a feeling of accomplishment from wronging other people.  These are things I have observed for twenty years solid.  I know you think that you are proving something with your gestures and vicious words but all those really accomplish is that they make me feel sorry for you.

I need a job and won’t deny it but the vocal portions of the traffic remind me of Jerry Springer shows.  I just feel sorry for you and I wish you had something in your life that made you content.   You are so busy attacking me for something that you all did to me.  I didn’t make up the traffic and I certainly never behaved as poorly as that.

Let me ask you this.  Would you feel less then someone who is abusive, mean and nasty toward you for twenty years or would you feel sorry for them that they thought that was an appropriate way to act?

For me, I feel like the worst people in the world have come around to lecture me about how bad a human being I am. You want to scream at them, “Look at your behavior and you are going to lecture me on how to behave”.

I guess you are right.  I do feel superior to most of the traffic because a twenty year hate on is just stupid and then I get lectured on how smart these people are.  The job is definitely a problem of mine but all the rest proves to me that I am better then you and the only way you can prove otherwise is to behave in a way that makes me feel you are better then me.  I kind of doubt most of the traffic is capable of that since it includes not calling people disgusting, piece of shit, faggot, fuck you and so on.  This is something that it is quite clear that you do not excel at.

These are not qualities that I admire and make me think to myself, “Man these people are better then me.”  These are qualities that make me think, “Wow, these people are broken and twisted.”