Well I was out driving this morning, I realized that there is nothing unique about my situation with the traffic. In fact it is stereotypical of any abusive relationship. Somehow I convinced myself that everyone is right to treat me as sub human because of how horrible a human being I am. Meanwhile, my abusers have been intentionally putting me in a situation where I need them so they can treat me however they want. The whole thing is actually common place and I have been sitting around pretending it is unique.
The scale is a bit unique but the actual actions aren’t unique in the slightest. Most abused people have a way out because non abusers will lend them a hand. I however am stuck in a position of being abused because my abusers excel at their work and have succeeded in positioning me in a place where I am guaranteed not to get help.
I have a feeling when they read this even their response will be pretty stereotypical in and of itself. “I am not being abusive and attacking him. I am doing this because I have to. He made me abuse him, it is not my fault I have to abuse him.”
I guess the first step is to look up and study abusive relationships, why they occur and ways to get away from them. I can’t believe I didn’t hear the tell tale sign of, “You are making me do this to you. Why do you make me hurt you?” It has been the crux of the traffic’s argument for so many years and I didn’t even see when I know that is the sign to look for to determine if you are being abused.